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April 8th, 2026.

I haven't written here in a long ass time. Mainly because I cant get my piece of shit fucking laptop to work. Unlike usual, alots actually been going on in my life. I went to a couple shows recently (a certain local hardcore band had a free show a couple weeks back) and I actually know people now. I joined an ultras group for a certain local football (soccer, not american football) team. They have another home game coming up next week, but its on a wednesday so I have to find a way to go because I know my mom probably wont let me. I don't have a car or a bike so I cant get there that way, and im usually too broke for a train and the closest train station is far away walking. If anything, I could just climb out the window and ask someone to drive me. I've tried to get back into writing. It isnt good at all. I tend to remember old ideas and start working on them and slowly lose enthusiasm for them. One of those was something about weird human rat things living in a bunker after an apocolypse who want to leave and see the outside world, even knowing theres probably nothing out there left for them, theres nothing in the bunker for them either. The thing that im mainly worried about is that I want to get the tone just right. I want it to be bleak but I dont want it to feel hopeless. I'm also worried about it being too edgy because I came up with it when i was like 15. Sure I'm only a year older now but I feel like im really different than I was back then. When I was 15 I starting getting really into drinking and smoking and taking whatever I could to distract myself from where I was and what my life was and that was sort of reflected in the characters. Alot of the stuff I wrote back then was super mopey and gay. I've also gotten really into south park recently. I'm on season 8 episode 5 right now. I got alot more into graffitti so I can have some reason to go outside other than to go to the record store or look for alcohol on the floor. Its spring break, and all things considered ive been pretty good. Its probably only a matter of time before this fucking thing stops working again. It always waits until im doing something to break.